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I feel so alone and conflicted right now. I’m single now and I hate it. I’m still living with him. I still love him. I still want him. I’ve tried to ask him to take me back but since I’m the one that ended it; he doesn’t know. He doesn’t trust me right now. I get it. He feels like I led him on or that my heart wasn’t true. But right now I can’t picture my life without him. I want to show him it’s different, but every time we say “I love you”, I feel him just growing more distant. I don’t know what I would do without him. And it’s my fault so I get it if he doesn’t want me back. I wish he would just tell me and let me know where we stand. He’s all I want. He’s the only one that stood by me in my time of need. And I just threw it away. He says he needs time. What good is time without reassurance? I just want to be his….

venus in the composite chart

universalstrology:

1st house: your relationship’s image is important when venus is in the first house of a composite chart. you need to appear amiable and respectful, and an attractive couple. you like to show your relationship off to others and you value each other at least on the surface. you’re mutually supportive and others see you as compassionate and loving.

2nd house: this is a comfortable place for venus to be in. this makes you want to go out and do things that’ll make the both of you happy, placing an emphasis on pleasure and desire. if you two value the same thing, you’re likely to get them. getting what each of you want is highlighted in the relationship so if you two value different things, this could be a potential roadblock. it can seem like a materialistic relationship.

3rd house: there is emphasis on communication. you understand each other and are open with each other. you love to have intellectually stimulating conversations. there is a light feeling to this relationship. you enjoy learning and discussing things with each other. your biggest arguments might be about trivial things or facts. 

4th house: strong value of family and the home comes with this. your families might be very involved in your relationships or your heritage and backgrounds will merge with each other. living together might be easy for people with this placement, and you feel emotionally connected in a well decorated home. you might keep your relationship more private to the public eye. 

5th house: a very fun and romantic placement. you desire and value self-expression in the other person. your partner stimulates creativity and a carefree attitude in you and vice versa. there’s a strong need to have fun with each other. romantic expressions are exaggerated. you don’t hold each other back from freely expressing yourselves. you show each other your true selves.

6th house: doing small daily routines can be pleasurable with this placement. you value working to live well. you push each other to be healthier or complete tasks more efficiently. you might enjoy doing daily tasks such as cooking or exercising together. chores can bring happiness to both of you when you do them together.

7th house: you naturally feel comfortable with each other. your relationship has to seem beautiful and at times can be a bit superficial. equality is important and enjoy doing things together. doing favors for each other is easy. if someone feels like the relationship is unfair however, it can cause heavy disagreements in negotiation. you could be marriage material to the other.

8th house: the two of you can please each other without having to be too concerned of one gaining too much power over the other or being unfair with each other. the desire to please comes with this placement. you may hide your relationship from others in the public eye, or have really intense emotions attached to each other. it is a transforming relationship in terms of love, even if platonic. 

9th house: you’re considerate of each other’s opinions, ideologies, beliefs, and philosophies. you enjoy discussing society and life. you feel the need to travel and experience the world together. you have a very open attitude with each other. if you have differing opinions, it’s bound to cause passionate debates. one may take on the role of the teacher.

10th house: a good business partner placement. your public image and reputation are important so you always try to look your best. you come off nice and fair to others. people see you two as peaceful and loving. you can gain status and profit when working together. you help each other with your careers. 

11th house: you find each other more attractive when you’re out with other people. you may share a lot of the same friends. you may work together on projects and displays your talents to your community. social settings are emphasized between you two. you’re seen as peaceful and are a friendly couple to approach.

12th house: there is an unconscious desire to be together. your relationship (or it’s true image) may seen completely hidden or different than it seems. there’s a lot of unanswered questions and suspicious floating around. you have a need to understand each other. you’re very emotionally drawn to each other and can be idealistic about the relationship.

The Creepiest Thing About You, Based on Your Zodiac Sign

nawawalangmata:

Aries. Death obsessed. You are always thinking about your own death and the death of those closest to you. It’s creepy but actually completely normal for your sign since you’re one of the death signs.

Taurus. You are a stalker. You are most likely to know exactly what your ex is doing post breakup due to extreme lurking. You have mastered the art of social media stalking and real life sitting-outside-your-apartment stalking.

Gemini. You are a liar. You should be a writer because man can you weave a vivid tale. The worse part is that you always think that you’re telling the truth or some version of the truth– you can’t help you are two faced in your nature.

Cancer. You are obsessive. When it comes to relationships you have to remind yourself not to get carried away. It’s in your nature to nurture, but your obsessions with your partner are not only creepy but make your partner feel suffocated.

Leo. You want to be loved and admired so much, and you don’t care who gets in the way. You are always looking out for your number one: yourself. The things you will do for the sake of attention are frightening.

Virgo. You have secret bizarre sexual fetishes that live in the back of your mind. Unfortunately, that’s generally where they stay due to the shy nature of the Virgo. However, there’s an inner freak that envisions some pretty kinky stuff and one day you just might bring it out.

Libra. You are most likely to have an aching curiosity about all things creepy; it led you to click on that article and watch that documentary. You have seen some shit thanks to the internet and your overwhelming desire to know the why, who and when of every disturbing thing you read or see.

Scorpio. You can get super dark. In fact, you are the darkest sign in the zodiac. Dark thoughts pop into your head pretty easily: thoughts of murder and scenarios of violence ensuing. You can’t help but think about how at any moment you could choose to be a murderer or start a fire or drop a baby.

Sagittarius. You can be cold hearted. You have run so far away from your feelings that you have turned to stone. You often feel numb in instances where you should be feeling extreme happiness or sadness. What are tears?

Capricorn. You fantasize about murder, specifically murdering those closest to you. You fantasize about murdering your sister when she’s being annoying or your co-worker who won’t shut up. It’s a twisted game you play in your head.

Aquarius. You think about what you’ll say at your friends’ and family’s funerals. You are thinking of lovely things to say, but the creepy part is how often you think about it. You are a thinker and sometimes your mind wanders to vast scenarios, even the darker ones.

Pisces. In every horrible awful scenario your head thinks of, like someone shooting up the store you’re in or your apartment building being set on fire by a madman, you are always the hero. You swoop in and stop the attacker. You think you have to save everyone, so you think of all the horrible situations in which you’d have to step up and save the day.

your 12th emoji is how you’ll die

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midnight virgo confessions

astrolocherry:

i’m still awake, exhausting myself. and i will fall asleep eventually after i’ve overthought myself to sleep, so i’ll wake up exhausted. and i have to wake early to get ready properly so i won’t forget anything or draw attention to myself by being late. the days go too quickly but too slowly, that sick feeling always in my tummy, like butterflies that never die. i’ll be over energetic or stimulated and tired and worn out at the same time, trying to stay awake but being unable to sleep, so much on my mind but paralysed when i try to let it out

Part of me wants to cry and part of me wants to run away. I don’t know what part to listen to. I’ll be fine, just going through some things. There’s always a light at the end of the tunnel, though! I (you) got this.